To Huntress:
w'salam warahmatullah sis. wah. jauhnye "hunting" sampai ke sini ye? ;p
i love the hadith too. wonderful, isn't it? :D n ouh, u really like the post on Saddam? unexpected. hee~ my writings need lots of improvement. nevertheless, appreciate those words of encouragement :)
To Atiqah:
eh eh budak nie... tak padan kocik. ada hati nak kacau2 orang. bukak rahsia psl budak yg "jaga pandangan" tu baru tau! ;p on a more serious note (chey~), love u lots la sis. rinduuuuu. have lots of catching up (n getting even on some matters) to do. *kih kih kih*
To nadiah:
*awW* syukran ya habiibatii 'ala du'aaik. may what u du'a for others, u get back in return. aameen! :D btw, nad ckp aameen part "suka kopek bawang" tu jugak ke? heee~ just wondering...
ish. tak payahlah tunggu kad walimah khad. nanti mcm tunggu buah tak jatuh. tak tiba2. ntah2 nad atau diyana punya yang sampai dulu ;)
yes! khad pun nak jumpa mak nad juga :D one day insyaAllah k dear?
to Rayahiin:
aameen to the first part of ur du'a. but to the the second part tu, erm, why don't we reverse it instead? "wazawwijikillaahi qariiban!!" aameen! (kih kih kih) akaklah dulu. mana boleh langkah bendul kan? ;p *tak sabar tunggu kad walimah kak Rai~ weE!!*
to nizam:
"masanye blm tiba untuk awk berjumpe dgnnya... amiin.. " > eh. ni awk amiinkan agar kte lambat bertemu jodoh ke? haha. anw, thanks to u too for the du'a. awak pun bila dah bertemu jodoh & nak adakan walimah jangan lupa jemput kte ye? :)
to ms supernova:
suka kopek bawang je. hiris n blender ok, but tak se-febret kopek. hee~ thanks sis 4 the help in NI, although u guys have graduated, but the concern n care are still there. appreciate it, really. NI need those support. very. hmm~
what i wrote abt NI's meeting referred to yesterday's meeting (wasn't able to attend the previous 2 meetings due to my classes) , where only 3-4 ppl attended. couldn't help sensing the emptiness.. anw, as u said, yes, perhaps it was just a one-time-pressure, n soon everything will be fine. hopefully. aameen... :)
Monday, January 29, 2007
Khas Buat Emak...
10 Muharram 1428H
Kehadapan Emak Tersayang,
Khadijah ucapkan Selamat Hari Lahir yang ke-59 buat Mak. Hanya ALLAH s.w.t. sahaja yang dapat membalas jasa mak membesarkan orang (dan abang2, kakak2 dan adik). atas didikan dan asuhan yang diberikan beserta sentuhan kasih sayang yang tiada akhirnya. juga keprihatinan dan perhatian yang tidak terperi. ALLAHU yubaarik feek ya Ummil mahbuubah.
Maaf dipinta sekiranya selama ni orang banyak menyusahkan dan melukai hati mak, sama ada yang sengaja ataupun tidak. orang kagum sangat dengan kesabaran mak. sungguh. orang pun nak cuba latih diri ini, supaya jadi tabah dan sabar macam mak. juga ingin mencontohi kerajinan mak. rasanya mak lah wanita yang paling rajin yang pernah orang jumpa dalam dunia ni. macam mana mak boleh bangun seawal 4 pagi buat persediaan mencari rezeki, demi anak-anak....
tidak hairanlah mengapa ayah sayang sangat pada mak. seumur hidup orang kan mak, orang tak pernah pun nampak atau dengar ayah memarahi mak. pukul jauh sekali. tapi ayah garang dan strict betul dengan kitorang. (ye, mak pernah jawab bila orang mengadu psl ni pat mak: "yelah, kalau tak nanti anak-anak naik lemak....." :) betul jugak ye. hee~ strict2 ayah pun anak mak yang sorang ni "mcm gini" jugak perangainya (mak jgn bilang org lain eh mak camne perangai org kat rumah. malu.... ;) ). untung ayah dapat isteri macam mak. untung juga mak dapat suami macam ayah. bak pinang dibelah 7 (nombor febret orang tu. hee~). Indahnya pentadbiran ALLAH yang menciptakan manusia berpasang-pasangan. saling melengkapi antara satu sama lain. Mak dan Ayah adalah merupakan antara bukti akan kesahihan kata-kata ini.
Mak, orang pernah tanya mak kan, mak nak orang kahwin umur berapa. (bukan gatal ye, sekadar nak cungkil keinginan hati wanita tersayang ku ini :) ). tak sangka pulak mak akan jawab: "Kahwinlah cepat-cepat. biar ramai zuriat...." boleh sambung lagi tu dengan nasihat agar jangan terburu-buru: ".....orang lelaki ni kalau dia betul-betul suka kita, dia akan tunggu... (sampai kita habis belajar. begitu rasanya maksud kata2 mak itu mengikut interpretasiku)". dan Ayah mengiyakan. jadi agaknya betullah tu. ayah kan lelaki. (hehe)
Semalam, masa kitorang ramai-ramai tonton DVD pernikahan dan persandingan Abang Mohd Nor (2nd bro), mak tiba-tiba buka semula topik kat dapur kelmarin. ish. malulah mak.. tapi mak jawab pulak depan orang ramai tu: "...25 tahun bolehlah..." (umur sesuai untuk orang kahwin, pada pendapat mak). Abang Mohd Nor pulak menyampuk: "25? 25 untuk perempuan macam tua sikit gitu. 22-23 lah...." haha. comel lah abangku ini. dalam diam dia dah ada plan untuk adik dia. sayangnye abang matnor~ Abang Matnor dan Kak Sherin pun satu lagi contoh keindahan pentadbiran ALLAH. sama lawa, baik, kelakar, pandai, berakhlak... ^-^ jaga Kak Sherin baik2 tau. sayang sangat kat dia juga...
macam dah panjang sangat gitu e-warkah ni kan mak. hee~ biasalah anak mak ni. kalau tulis mana nak reti pendek2 ;p rasanya sampai di sini sahaja warkah orang buat masa ni . mata ni dah penat sangat mak. tadi orang buat report MMIC . lepastu ada Nur Ikhwan meeting pasal retreat. kesian tengok 2 I/C dia. kalau tak turun sekali, dorang jugak yang kene rancang dan laksanakan segala-galanya. sedangkan sepatutnya ramai anggota NI tu tau mak. tsk. takpelah, semoga keadaan akan bertambah teratur dan baik semula secepat mungkin...
Kehadapan Emak Tersayang,
Khadijah ucapkan Selamat Hari Lahir yang ke-59 buat Mak. Hanya ALLAH s.w.t. sahaja yang dapat membalas jasa mak membesarkan orang (dan abang2, kakak2 dan adik). atas didikan dan asuhan yang diberikan beserta sentuhan kasih sayang yang tiada akhirnya. juga keprihatinan dan perhatian yang tidak terperi. ALLAHU yubaarik feek ya Ummil mahbuubah.
Maaf dipinta sekiranya selama ni orang banyak menyusahkan dan melukai hati mak, sama ada yang sengaja ataupun tidak. orang kagum sangat dengan kesabaran mak. sungguh. orang pun nak cuba latih diri ini, supaya jadi tabah dan sabar macam mak. juga ingin mencontohi kerajinan mak. rasanya mak lah wanita yang paling rajin yang pernah orang jumpa dalam dunia ni. macam mana mak boleh bangun seawal 4 pagi buat persediaan mencari rezeki, demi anak-anak....
tidak hairanlah mengapa ayah sayang sangat pada mak. seumur hidup orang kan mak, orang tak pernah pun nampak atau dengar ayah memarahi mak. pukul jauh sekali. tapi ayah garang dan strict betul dengan kitorang. (ye, mak pernah jawab bila orang mengadu psl ni pat mak: "yelah, kalau tak nanti anak-anak naik lemak....." :) betul jugak ye. hee~ strict2 ayah pun anak mak yang sorang ni "mcm gini" jugak perangainya (mak jgn bilang org lain eh mak camne perangai org kat rumah. malu.... ;) ). untung ayah dapat isteri macam mak. untung juga mak dapat suami macam ayah. bak pinang dibelah 7 (nombor febret orang tu. hee~). Indahnya pentadbiran ALLAH yang menciptakan manusia berpasang-pasangan. saling melengkapi antara satu sama lain. Mak dan Ayah adalah merupakan antara bukti akan kesahihan kata-kata ini.
Mak, orang pernah tanya mak kan, mak nak orang kahwin umur berapa. (bukan gatal ye, sekadar nak cungkil keinginan hati wanita tersayang ku ini :) ). tak sangka pulak mak akan jawab: "Kahwinlah cepat-cepat. biar ramai zuriat...." boleh sambung lagi tu dengan nasihat agar jangan terburu-buru: ".....orang lelaki ni kalau dia betul-betul suka kita, dia akan tunggu... (sampai kita habis belajar. begitu rasanya maksud kata2 mak itu mengikut interpretasiku)". dan Ayah mengiyakan. jadi agaknya betullah tu. ayah kan lelaki. (hehe)
Semalam, masa kitorang ramai-ramai tonton DVD pernikahan dan persandingan Abang Mohd Nor (2nd bro), mak tiba-tiba buka semula topik kat dapur kelmarin. ish. malulah mak.. tapi mak jawab pulak depan orang ramai tu: "...25 tahun bolehlah..." (umur sesuai untuk orang kahwin, pada pendapat mak). Abang Mohd Nor pulak menyampuk: "25? 25 untuk perempuan macam tua sikit gitu. 22-23 lah...." haha. comel lah abangku ini. dalam diam dia dah ada plan untuk adik dia. sayangnye abang matnor~ Abang Matnor dan Kak Sherin pun satu lagi contoh keindahan pentadbiran ALLAH. sama lawa, baik, kelakar, pandai, berakhlak... ^-^ jaga Kak Sherin baik2 tau. sayang sangat kat dia juga...
macam dah panjang sangat gitu e-warkah ni kan mak. hee~ biasalah anak mak ni. kalau tulis mana nak reti pendek2 ;p rasanya sampai di sini sahaja warkah orang buat masa ni . mata ni dah penat sangat mak. tadi orang buat report MMIC . lepastu ada Nur Ikhwan meeting pasal retreat. kesian tengok 2 I/C dia. kalau tak turun sekali, dorang jugak yang kene rancang dan laksanakan segala-galanya. sedangkan sepatutnya ramai anggota NI tu tau mak. tsk. takpelah, semoga keadaan akan bertambah teratur dan baik semula secepat mungkin...
oh ya! satu lagi yang orang tak dapat lupakan ialah masa orang kat hospital kelmarin. tak sanggup orang lihat mak menitiskan air mata... risaunye mak tengok anak mak ni sakit. terpancar jelas riak kebimbangan di wajah mak waktu orang mengerang kesakitan atas katil pat rumah masa tu. waktu mak pujuk orang makan untuk alas perut sebelum makan ubat yang gedabak2 tu... mak suapkan sekali... sayu sungguh rasa hati ni mak. terharu. tersentuh. terasa sangat yang diri ini dikasihi... walaupun mak ada 9 anak selain orang, tapi kasih sayang yang dicurahkan tak pernah kurang. sungguh jasa baik mak hanya Dia yang mampu membalasnya...
Rabbighfirlii waliwaalidayya warhamhumaa kamaa rabbayaani saghiirah. aameen :)
Yang benar,
anak mak yang ke-9 yang suka kopek bawang,
.:Khadijah binte Mohamed Hussain:.
p.s. smoga ALLAH panjangkan usia mak ayah untuk lihat zauj orang nanti (kalau anak mak yang cerewet ni ada jodoh la kan. hee~). dan insyaAllah lihat anak-anak orang. 7 orang cukup kan? heeeheee... orang jealous tau tengok mak beri tips dan petua2 kat kakak2 time dorang bersalin, cara2 jaga baby semua... ;)
Thursday, January 25, 2007
mepek uh. tak payah bace =P
7 Muharram 1428H
just finished my part of the Medical Microbiology project research. we have to come up with a poster to educate some army guys who are going to a jungle in Brunei. something like a pre-mission briefing for the soldiers... haa! like real~ must educate them on the possible fungal n parasitic infections, and how to treat n prevention such infections from occuring. but it's pretty interesting. esp compared to LMQA. (that's Laboratory Management and Quality Assurance). just had a group presentation at 1pm this afternoon. turned out to be the first grp to present, among ALL the grps, which, as we just discovered, are only presenting next week. semangat sgt grp gue~ (the students fix the presentation schedule, n inform the lecturer, unlike the conventional way).
somehow in this post, i just feel like sharing. random things that happened. let's see:
i just "performed" 2 selenge (as someone put it) acts for the past few days:
just finished my part of the Medical Microbiology project research. we have to come up with a poster to educate some army guys who are going to a jungle in Brunei. something like a pre-mission briefing for the soldiers... haa! like real~ must educate them on the possible fungal n parasitic infections, and how to treat n prevention such infections from occuring. but it's pretty interesting. esp compared to LMQA. (that's Laboratory Management and Quality Assurance). just had a group presentation at 1pm this afternoon. turned out to be the first grp to present, among ALL the grps, which, as we just discovered, are only presenting next week. semangat sgt grp gue~ (the students fix the presentation schedule, n inform the lecturer, unlike the conventional way).
somehow in this post, i just feel like sharing. random things that happened. let's see:
i just "performed" 2 selenge (as someone put it) acts for the past few days:
- while concentrating on waving n smiling at this toddler in the bus Tues nite, i actually missed my bus stop. terbabas. n it so happened that the next bus stop is very far. sungguh. it's like a mini expressway from Yishun to somewhere near Admiralty. n i guess it's fated that on that very night, takde satu pun makhluk tak halus lain yg nak turun atau naik kat bus stop rumah saya. actually kan, to be really honest here, i realised my bus stop when the bus just passed it. n even pressed the bell when the bus was like inches from tyhe correct bus stop. i think if it's someone else, he/she might have shouted to the driver or smtg. or even pressed the bell repeatedly (seen this before?). but not me. that will just attract unwanted attention from the other passengers (tak suka!! i already glimpsed someone turning at me when i pressed the bell. sebOk je nk tengok2 org) , n not forgetting the paiseh-ness. so apelagi, se-TEP buat muke selambe, cool, calm, composed, n waited for the next bus stop which seemed like miles n miles away. sungguh. jaOh beb~ -_-"
- just now, when i was about to change to slippers in the TP ASc musolla, i realised that the place was dark. "eh? knp mcm gelap gitu eh. nk bukak kasut n sarung selipar pun tak clear sgt". guess what??
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i forgot to switch on the light!!!! ish. -_-"
hee~ but anw, guess what (again!)? i've come to a conclusion: sometimes in life kan, we need a lil bit of selenger-ness to colour our life. spice it up. mcm makin meriah n berseri-seri gitu. hehe. korang2 yg bace ni pun jgn nk tersengeh2 (nnt org ingat korang gila. =P). mcmlah gue tak tau yg korang pun pernah selenge jugak. quote of the day:
"a selenger-ness a day keeps the doctor away"
mepek nye Khadijah!!
Monday, January 22, 2007
cool down...
an excerpt from an article by Aa Gym:
"jangan terlalu suka mengukur perbuatan atau amalan yang dilakukan dengan penilaian orang lain. Penilaian orang lain itu tidak pernah sempurna, apa lagi adil seperti penilaian Allah swt.
Kalau mahu merasakan nikmatnya hidup, jangan lupa berbuat baik dan usah pedulikan sama ada orang lain mengetahuinya atau tidak. Cukuplah kita yakin bahawa Allah mengetahui kebaikan yang telah kita lakukan, Allah pasti tidak akan membiarkan amal manusia walaupun hanya sebesar biji sawi"
simple words they are. but to me, they have deep meanings. n the thing i like about Aa Gym's aticles is that they have some kind of a calming effect. the words he used. how he addresses the readers. how he tries to convey his messages, advise others, without sounding offensive or finger-pointing :)
the idea of people getting themselves heard without the need to shout at or exhort others... aah. it appeals to me. very polite. exhibiting good manners. not hurting or embarrasing others with their words. i like~
i strongly encourage u to read the "Urusan Kalbu" section in Berita Minggu. especially after reading all those news articles on the bombings, killings, esp the part how some "peacekeepers" trying to act innocent (these news never fail to make my blood boil)...
anw, since we're already on the topic, i can't resist blogging on some political issues. have to. if not it'll explode inside. heh. (btw it's partly related to my previous post on Saddam)
gua salute habes sama Iran. u go Mahmoud Ahmadinejad! (in case u're wondering, he's the cute, small, yet witty n brave Iranian President. i like~ oh. btw, he, too has a blog. coOL~). solid stand he has. never relenting to the "peacekeepers". even if u relent, i doubt they (yup yup. i'm referring to the "peacekeepers") will leave u alone. maybe not now, but u'll never know what else they might come up with in the (near) future to accuse u of having some "things" (or perhaps accusing u of being some dictator?) which, somehow, will eventually lead to war, killings, etc etc.
sounds familiar?
ya lor. coz it happened before. remember Iraq?
now that part of it is released: phew~
"jangan terlalu suka mengukur perbuatan atau amalan yang dilakukan dengan penilaian orang lain. Penilaian orang lain itu tidak pernah sempurna, apa lagi adil seperti penilaian Allah swt.
Kalau mahu merasakan nikmatnya hidup, jangan lupa berbuat baik dan usah pedulikan sama ada orang lain mengetahuinya atau tidak. Cukuplah kita yakin bahawa Allah mengetahui kebaikan yang telah kita lakukan, Allah pasti tidak akan membiarkan amal manusia walaupun hanya sebesar biji sawi"
simple words they are. but to me, they have deep meanings. n the thing i like about Aa Gym's aticles is that they have some kind of a calming effect. the words he used. how he addresses the readers. how he tries to convey his messages, advise others, without sounding offensive or finger-pointing :)
the idea of people getting themselves heard without the need to shout at or exhort others... aah. it appeals to me. very polite. exhibiting good manners. not hurting or embarrasing others with their words. i like~
i strongly encourage u to read the "Urusan Kalbu" section in Berita Minggu. especially after reading all those news articles on the bombings, killings, esp the part how some "peacekeepers" trying to act innocent (these news never fail to make my blood boil)...
anw, since we're already on the topic, i can't resist blogging on some political issues. have to. if not it'll explode inside. heh. (btw it's partly related to my previous post on Saddam)
gua salute habes sama Iran. u go Mahmoud Ahmadinejad! (in case u're wondering, he's the cute, small, yet witty n brave Iranian President. i like~ oh. btw, he, too has a blog. coOL~). solid stand he has. never relenting to the "peacekeepers". even if u relent, i doubt they (yup yup. i'm referring to the "peacekeepers") will leave u alone. maybe not now, but u'll never know what else they might come up with in the (near) future to accuse u of having some "things" (or perhaps accusing u of being some dictator?) which, somehow, will eventually lead to war, killings, etc etc.
sounds familiar?
ya lor. coz it happened before. remember Iraq?
now that part of it is released: phew~
Saturday, January 20, 2007
Epp!
was intending to close blogger.com when my 1 year + niece, Syaakirah, went to me for the 5th time to put in a teeny piece of an apple in my mouth. 1st it was a teeny potato chip. then it was the pulp of a preserved mango (dah licin daa. isi semua dia dah telan. ish.), then another teeny piece of chips again, then something else (forgot what was the "thing" she put into my mouth. hee. boleh gitu~). then the apple!
budak ni! kenapa tersangat baik terhadapku malam2 buta ni? kalau tak kitorang mcm arch rivals gitu pat rumah (orang suka sgt kacau dia. heh). haa. ni dia dtg lagi. just beside me. a tiny finger of hers trying to press a button on this keyboard. aah! i know. this must be one of her attempts to flatter me in the hope that i will let her "press-press" this keyboard.
alahai~ budak ni betul2 menggeramkan! gigit baru tau.... ;)
budak ni! kenapa tersangat baik terhadapku malam2 buta ni? kalau tak kitorang mcm arch rivals gitu pat rumah (orang suka sgt kacau dia. heh). haa. ni dia dtg lagi. just beside me. a tiny finger of hers trying to press a button on this keyboard. aah! i know. this must be one of her attempts to flatter me in the hope that i will let her "press-press" this keyboard.
alahai~ budak ni betul2 menggeramkan! gigit baru tau.... ;)
Friday, January 19, 2007
1428 years have passed since the Hijrah...
1 Muharram 1428H
to all, Happy Islamic New Year of 1428H! ^-^
can't resist posting an entry on 1st Muharram. so, here i am~
new year is always related to making resolutions...
so what are my resolutions? well, they're simply a continuation from previous years'. the usual ones like:
to all, Happy Islamic New Year of 1428H! ^-^
can't resist posting an entry on 1st Muharram. so, here i am~
new year is always related to making resolutions...
so what are my resolutions? well, they're simply a continuation from previous years'. the usual ones like:
- to be a better Muslimah (i.e. as a humble servant of ALLAH, daughter, sister, auntie, friend, student, part-time teacher, citizen...) in terms of Akhlak, Adab, Iman, 'Amal n 'Ilm (kene pandai jaga lidah, mata, tangan, kaki dan hati tu tau Khadijah!)
- to work on my relationship with ALLAH, Rasulullah sollallaahu 'alaishi wasallam n the people around me
- to curb and control my nafs (desire). n this encompasses ALL types of nafs: nafsu makan, nafsu tidur, nafsu slack (a.k.a nafsu nak malas je!), nafsu membeli, nafsu jiwang (=P), nafsu menangguh2 kerja...
to start off, i'm pretty happy with myself for curbing two such desires yesterday while jalan-jalan with my dear junior from Biomed, Raihanah. such a sweet n kind girl she is. baarakallaahu feeha. she asked me out for lunch (hee~ comel kan?), n so we ended up spending about 3 hours in each others' company. suker~
anw, back to the two desires i managed to curb:
- the desire to buy this pair of very nice earrings. lawa sgt. comel. sweet! ok. i guess by now u get the idea how much i would love to have the earrings. esp considering that i already have like, erm, more than 20 pairs at home. ish. jgn nak membazir eh Khadijah. membazir tu kawan syai......tan... (like how i always remind my nieces n nephews. i just have to say the "syai....." n they will continue with the "....taaaaan" *kih kih kih* must practise what u preach k?)
- the desire to buy the latest meal at Burger King. alar, u know the grilled chicken turkey bacon. complete with lettuce, mayo, tomatoes.... *awW* anw, i finally settled on the normal turkey bacon meal. alhamdulillah. (takpe, yg mahal2 tu nnt boleh pujuk kakak or abang belanja. heehee~)
yup yup, i know they were just minor desires. but still, to me it's a good start. *triumphant smile* so in the end i spent the rest of my money on something else. something that i feel i need (not "want"). something fresh to start off the New Year with. *secretive smile*
may ALL our (yup yup. that includes YOURs too! :D) dreams, aspirations, n resolutions come true. aameen! let's continue our du'a for each other k? du'a for our fellow Muslim brothers n sisters out there. esp those in Palestine, Iraq, Lebanon, Indonesia, Malaysia (flood. kesian kan dorang :( ]...
n for our Ummah!
O ALLAH... Let the Ummah rise again...
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
thanks eh "Peacekeepers". BoO!
after viewing the latest UmmahFilms video, somehow i was reminded of the Saddam Hussein's execution video. (one of my students asked me last 2 weeks: "ustazah dah tengok video Saddam kene gantung?" that, triggered the curioisity. heh).
so yeah. i did watch it. the video was of poor quality, with lotsa movements here n there. was concentrating on his recitations of the shahadah (that part was super clear) but i think my heart stopped for a millisecond when the plank underneath him was opened.
then watched the video of his burial. like the last part when the imam read the du'a. n the reminders that followed it. "fahfazil amaanah!"
what i think of it? or to be exact: what i think of (the late) Saddam Hussein?
what i can say is that: who we are at the end of our life is much more important than who we were throughout our whole life. we can be the most pious, knowledgable, kindest people in our life. but in the end, who we are when we die matters the most. n vice versa. Saddam might be cruel to others thruout his life, but if he repent, regret... ? n ultimately it's up to ALLAH to judge him.
it's obvious how the state of Iraq was much better, harmonious n peaceful without the intervention of some "peacekeepers". i really pity those Iraqians who actually supported those "peacekeepers" n even celebrated Saddam's death. as though wanting to show off how grateful they were to those "peacekeepers" who, as we all know by know (it's obvious la dey~), only brought Iraq to an even terrible state. more and more of our innocent Muslim brothers n sisters are being killed each day. at this very moment. NOW!
:(
to Saddam Hussein, who, after all, was still my brother in Islam: May ALLAH bless ur soul.
n ALLAH n His Messenger know best.
so yeah. i did watch it. the video was of poor quality, with lotsa movements here n there. was concentrating on his recitations of the shahadah (that part was super clear) but i think my heart stopped for a millisecond when the plank underneath him was opened.
then watched the video of his burial. like the last part when the imam read the du'a. n the reminders that followed it. "fahfazil amaanah!"
what i think of it? or to be exact: what i think of (the late) Saddam Hussein?
what i can say is that: who we are at the end of our life is much more important than who we were throughout our whole life. we can be the most pious, knowledgable, kindest people in our life. but in the end, who we are when we die matters the most. n vice versa. Saddam might be cruel to others thruout his life, but if he repent, regret... ? n ultimately it's up to ALLAH to judge him.
it's obvious how the state of Iraq was much better, harmonious n peaceful without the intervention of some "peacekeepers". i really pity those Iraqians who actually supported those "peacekeepers" n even celebrated Saddam's death. as though wanting to show off how grateful they were to those "peacekeepers" who, as we all know by know (it's obvious la dey~), only brought Iraq to an even terrible state. more and more of our innocent Muslim brothers n sisters are being killed each day. at this very moment. NOW!
:(
to Saddam Hussein, who, after all, was still my brother in Islam: May ALLAH bless ur soul.
n ALLAH n His Messenger know best.
Monday, January 15, 2007
updates on Poly life. while it lasts...
was about to check my TP e-mail when this announcement popped up:
"To all graduating students in Semester 2 AY2006/07:
Graduation Ceremony will be held on 21 -23 May 2007. You will be receiving your graduation package closer to the date of the Ceremony... Please be informed that with effect from this year, graduates participating in the Graduation Ceremony will be required to put on graduation attire. Details can be found in the graduation package."
wonder how the graduation attire looks like. please let it be something nice *insert hopeful face here*
that aside, somehow i enjoyed the previous 2 Haematology practicals. despite having to view microscopically the various glass slides of the different blood disorders (like Malaria, different types of Leukaemia and Anaemia, etc.), n then draw them out, after which we had to show to Mr Poh (u gotta hear his remarks. "what is this?? looks like a finger like that" n his all-time favourite: "myelocytes have a kana-shape nucleus" -a'ah. buah kana tu. yg lonjong2. yg bungkus kat dlm plastic 3 for 10 cents dulu tu..). -_-"
but still, i enjoyed the lessons. btw, do u know that there are Red Blood Cells that look like helmets ("helmet cells"), tears ( "tear drop cells), durians ( "acanthocytes") n even those with Bull's eye inside ("target cells)? then there are those biscuit-like cells. comel sgt~ will surely miss "them" when i leave TP. hee~
ouh. n will also miss the times spent with the girls. while Mr Poh was "searching for some slides" this morning, Bren, Junie n me played the old tongue-twisting game:
she sells seashells on the seashore. the shells she sells are seashore shells ;p
to Boo, thanks again for the drawing of the cute cartoons during the super-blur guest lecture yesterday. shall not comment more on the lecturer. coz i really have nothing good to say abt him. hee~ so baik diam. full stop. btw, alhamdulillah, today's lecture was much more comprehensible. phew~
done!
"To all graduating students in Semester 2 AY2006/07:
Graduation Ceremony will be held on 21 -23 May 2007. You will be receiving your graduation package closer to the date of the Ceremony... Please be informed that with effect from this year, graduates participating in the Graduation Ceremony will be required to put on graduation attire. Details can be found in the graduation package."
wonder how the graduation attire looks like. please let it be something nice *insert hopeful face here*
that aside, somehow i enjoyed the previous 2 Haematology practicals. despite having to view microscopically the various glass slides of the different blood disorders (like Malaria, different types of Leukaemia and Anaemia, etc.), n then draw them out, after which we had to show to Mr Poh (u gotta hear his remarks. "what is this?? looks like a finger like that" n his all-time favourite: "myelocytes have a kana-shape nucleus" -a'ah. buah kana tu. yg lonjong2. yg bungkus kat dlm plastic 3 for 10 cents dulu tu..). -_-"
but still, i enjoyed the lessons. btw, do u know that there are Red Blood Cells that look like helmets ("helmet cells"), tears ( "tear drop cells), durians ( "acanthocytes") n even those with Bull's eye inside ("target cells)? then there are those biscuit-like cells. comel sgt~ will surely miss "them" when i leave TP. hee~
ouh. n will also miss the times spent with the girls. while Mr Poh was "searching for some slides" this morning, Bren, Junie n me played the old tongue-twisting game:
she sells seashells on the seashore. the shells she sells are seashore shells ;p
to Boo, thanks again for the drawing of the cute cartoons during the super-blur guest lecture yesterday. shall not comment more on the lecturer. coz i really have nothing good to say abt him. hee~ so baik diam. full stop. btw, alhamdulillah, today's lecture was much more comprehensible. phew~
done!
Bidadari
Isteri yang solehah memang benar bidadari di dunia ini
Permata yang amat berharga
Hiasan yang amat menawan
Peneguh yang amat kukuh
Isteri yang solehah berbalut ilmu berselimut akhlak
Isteri yang solehah menembus qolbu
kerana semua yang dia lakukan berasal dari ketulusan hati,
dari keikhlasan jiwa
Isteri yang solehah adalah rizq yang tak ternilai dari Allah yang menggenggam segala kemuliaan, pemberi segala kebahgiaan
Wahai kaum muslimin, pilihlah wanita solehah dengan mensolehkan dirimu
Wahai wanita solehah, jadilah bidadari dengan peribadi yang indah kerna Allah semata
p.s. yes yes, i know this might be a lil bit too advanced (but then again, maybe not?), but i can't help posting this at my khad-safiy coz the words touched my khad. deep. suker~ may this serve as a reminder and motivation for us sisters to continuously improve ourselves :)
p.p.s: this post was retrieved from akh Hairil's blog. such a lovely blog he has there. stumbled upon it while i was blog-hopping. terkejut gak tetibe je nampak my name in his link. ish. tak bilang -_-"
Permata yang amat berharga
Hiasan yang amat menawan
Peneguh yang amat kukuh
Isteri yang solehah berbalut ilmu berselimut akhlak
Isteri yang solehah menembus qolbu
kerana semua yang dia lakukan berasal dari ketulusan hati,
dari keikhlasan jiwa
Isteri yang solehah adalah rizq yang tak ternilai dari Allah yang menggenggam segala kemuliaan, pemberi segala kebahgiaan
Wahai kaum muslimin, pilihlah wanita solehah dengan mensolehkan dirimu
Wahai wanita solehah, jadilah bidadari dengan peribadi yang indah kerna Allah semata
p.s. yes yes, i know this might be a lil bit too advanced (but then again, maybe not?), but i can't help posting this at my khad-safiy coz the words touched my khad. deep. suker~ may this serve as a reminder and motivation for us sisters to continuously improve ourselves :)
p.p.s: this post was retrieved from akh Hairil's blog. such a lovely blog he has there. stumbled upon it while i was blog-hopping. terkejut gak tetibe je nampak my name in his link. ish. tak bilang -_-"
Tundukkanlah Pandanganmu...
Rasulullah sollallaahu 'alaihi wasallam bersabda:
"Pandangan mata adalah salah satu dari panah-panah iblis,
barangsiapa menundukkannya kerana Allah , maka akan dirasakan manisnya iman dalam hatinya."
Thursday, January 11, 2007
Antara Dua Cinta
apa yang ada jarang disyukuri
apa yang tiada sering dirisaukan
nikmat yang dikecap baru kan terasa bila hilang
apa yang diburu timbul rasa jemu
bila sudah di dalam genggaman
dunia ibarat air laut
diminum hanya menambah haus
nafsu bagaikan fatamorgana
di padang pasir
panas yang membahang disangka air
dunia dan nafsu bagai bayang-bayang
dilihat ada ditangkap hilang
Tuhan.. leraikanlah dunia
yang mendiam di dalam hatiku
kerana di situ tidak ku mampu
mengumpul dua cinta
hanya cintaMu ku harap tumbuh
dibajai bangkai dunia yang kubunuh
-Raihan-
love the last part especially. plus the vocals. very mesmerising~
Multi-Tasking
21 Zulhijjah 1427H
was actually intending to create another blog. a secret one (konon). with passwords (heh). to let out everything. from the significant ones like: "i just found my dream zauj!!!" (yeah right. can't imagine myself shouting out like that -_-")
.... to the trivial ones like: "just bought a pair of rose ear studs and a scrunchie with many small, dangling roses..." (which, to be honest, were exactly what i bought few months back while "shopping" for my nieces' birthday presents. tulah. banyak sangat main dengan budak2 dah jadi mcm budak2. hee~)
but no. due to some reasonS which, on a second thought, shall not be posted here :)
n anw, it will be easier for my Khadijah Juniors and *my zauj's name here* Juniors in the future. such that they will only have to go to one blog (if this khad-safiy still exist) to read n understand how their Ummi spent her young days back then. what i went through. n learn from my experiences. yang baik dijadikan tauladan, yang kureng baik (atau senang cakap, yang burok, tak senonoh, yang gila, dan yang sekaum dan sekerabat dengannya), dijadikan tauladan...
biidznillah. dan sesungguhnya manusia hanya mampu merancang, Allah yang menentukan :)
anw, my "blog-mood" seems to be on the rise. fuh~
n i'm sure my posts are going to be super long from now on (what's new anw? =P).
which will be tiring for the eyes to read. n people will simply scroll down to the end... skipping the words.... (panjangnye entry si Khadijah nie!! lecehnya nak baca...)
......which is what i hope for! *kih kih kih*
anw, at this very moment, i'm multi-tasking:
was actually intending to create another blog. a secret one (konon). with passwords (heh). to let out everything. from the significant ones like: "i just found my dream zauj!!!" (yeah right. can't imagine myself shouting out like that -_-")
.... to the trivial ones like: "just bought a pair of rose ear studs and a scrunchie with many small, dangling roses..." (which, to be honest, were exactly what i bought few months back while "shopping" for my nieces' birthday presents. tulah. banyak sangat main dengan budak2 dah jadi mcm budak2. hee~)
but no. due to some reasonS which, on a second thought, shall not be posted here :)
n anw, it will be easier for my Khadijah Juniors and *my zauj's name here* Juniors in the future. such that they will only have to go to one blog (if this khad-safiy still exist) to read n understand how their Ummi spent her young days back then. what i went through. n learn from my experiences. yang baik dijadikan tauladan, yang kureng baik (atau senang cakap, yang burok, tak senonoh, yang gila, dan yang sekaum dan sekerabat dengannya), dijadikan tauladan...
biidznillah. dan sesungguhnya manusia hanya mampu merancang, Allah yang menentukan :)
anw, my "blog-mood" seems to be on the rise. fuh~
n i'm sure my posts are going to be super long from now on (what's new anw? =P).
which will be tiring for the eyes to read. n people will simply scroll down to the end... skipping the words.... (panjangnye entry si Khadijah nie!! lecehnya nak baca...)
......which is what i hope for! *kih kih kih*
anw, at this very moment, i'm multi-tasking:
- blogging
- chatting at msn
- trying to read an online cerpen recommended by Liyana: Seindah Mawar Berduri
- reading a lyric of a nasyid which got me teary-eyed the first time i listened to it (which was yesterday, in the crowded 969 bus. fuh. luckily the tears were controllable. kalau tak paiseh beb). gonna post it up soon. truly meaningful :D
- checking my e-mail
- reading an online article on "How to Gain Weight...Quick & Easy!"
;)
oh. btw, i've just added few more people to my links:
- Atiqah, my adorable junior from MWTI. love her blog! ^-^
- Raodah, my dear junior from Biomed, TP.
- Fadilah, June and Brenda, my fellow course-, class- and groupmates. have to meet these people almost every single day (even during the "term break") for the past month for project meetings. which, unfortunately, seems neverending. one after another, and sometimes we even have 3 project meetings in a row. fuh.
the fact that my groupmates are cute, funny and nice helped alot. many2 thanks girls!~ :D
n especially to Junie, stop bullying me k auntie =P
p.s. learnt a few Mandarin vocabs, courtesy of Boo, Bren n Junie. "Wo hen ke ai" >> haha ;p
Monday, January 08, 2007
Fanaa'
Sukar sekali menjadi pengembara, baru mengenal dan jatuh cinta harus berpergian lagi
-Faisal Tehrani -
tapi mungkin ada juga baiknya menjadi pengembara. mendidik kita bahawa segala yang disayangi, dikasihi, tak selamanya akan bersama. menyelamatkan kita dari terlalu menyayangi sesuatu, mengharapkan pada sesuatu yang tak pasti. tak menentu. tak kekal. fanaa'.
kecuali Cinta-Nya...
macam mana agaknya jadi pengembara ye. mesti banyak pengalaman dapat diraih. membuka mata, memupuk kesabaran, menguji ketahanan diri, menyingkap tabir minda, membina peribadi...
tidak mengapa walau bersendirian. pengalaman telah mengajarku bahawa kuantiti tidak semestinya membahagiakan. seramai mana pun orang di sekeliling, adakalanya hati ini tetap diulit pilu. masih jua diselimuti kesepian. tidak lepas dari keraguan, kesedihan, kekecewaan...
ALLAH wa RasuuluHu ma'anaa kan? :)
Thursday, January 04, 2007
My Khad
14 Zulhijjah 1427H
suddenly i feel like i've lost the mood to blog.... at least for now.
been thinking...
a lot. as always laa Khadijah~
of actions,
intentions,
decisions,
purposes,
priorities,
feelings,
necessities VS wants,
n especially this:
mind VS heart.
the usual 'aql VS nafs VS qalb thingy...
hati ini,
kadangkala tak terkawal rasanya,
nak rasa apa, dia main rasa je.
tanpa amaran, tanpa disangka, tanpa dipinta.
mencabar sungguh proses pensucian hati ni kan?
Andainya hati itu secebis kain,
kan ku sental dan berus ia habis-habisan.
siap letak Dynamo, Chlorox, Softlan, Mami Lemon, (& 'benda' wangi yang orang selalu amik dari bilik air mak tu. lupa pulak namanya) sekali.
lepas tu rendam. lepas tu genyeh-genyeh sekuat hati. lepas tu jemur kat matahari.
biar putih, suci, murni, harum mewangi.
biar bersinar terang bak mentari,
seindah syurgawi.
barcahaya! berkilauan bak jauhari.
cerah, berseri-seri.
biar hapus bintik-bintik hitam dan daki...
yang sekian lama terkumpul akibat kekhilafan, kelalaian, kecuaian, kebodohan*, kelemahan dan kemalasan diri ini.
*kebodohan tak sama dengan kejahilan. Mudarris (my Arabic language teacher) pernah bilang: orang2 Arab Jahiliyyah tu digelarkan demikian, bukan kerana mereka bodoh, malahan ada di kalangan mereka yang bijak dalam sastera, perniagaan, dsb.
Digelarkan mereka jahil adalah kerana mereka tidak mempunyai hilm, tidak sabar, enggan mengakui dan menerima kebenaran...
Allahu wa RasuuluHu 'alam.
tapi sejak tahu pasal ni, orang cuba elakkan dari guna perkataan "jahil" lagi.
....................
haiz. macam drama pulak.
ingatkan nak compose post feeling siket. skali tu bila da nak siap ni jadi macam lawak laa pulak~ ish.
tapi betullah cerita psl hati tu.
rasa mcm hati ni kotor sgt sgt.
memang kotor pun agaknya. berdaki. eeii!
takpe Khadijah. masa yang ada ni, selagi hayat dikandung badan, teruskanlah usaha mensucikan hati awak tu. ikhtiar. ok?
:)
ok insyaAllah orang try.
-betul ni? nanti cakap je, tapi buatnye tidak. malu tau kalau gitu. Allah Maha Melihat, Maha Mengetahui. dan di akhirat kelak akan dipancarkan setiap perbuatan kita. buat tontonan semua manusia. yang dalam hati pun ada.
hmm~ takut betul nak janji. takut tak mampu ditepati. sekarang ni bolehlah cakap macam realz. tapi esok lusa? bila alah dengan sikap2 alpa, lupa...
tenggelam dalam ni'mat dunia (na'udzubillah)...
janji entah ke mana...
takutnya ya Allah!
Berilah daku Taufiq & HidayahMu
buat menyuluh, menerangi, membimbingku...
dalam melayari bahtera hidupku di dunia yang fana' ini.
p.s. tired of my bahasa rojak. so tried to compose this piece, with as little rojak language (huh?) as possible -_-"
anw, to my youngest sis, insyaAllah bila orang ada duit lebih, orang belikan hadiah hari jadi Dhilah k?
oh yes, dah baik semula dah. since weeks ago. hee~ alhamdulillah...
suddenly i feel like i've lost the mood to blog.... at least for now.
been thinking...
a lot. as always laa Khadijah~
of actions,
intentions,
decisions,
purposes,
priorities,
feelings,
necessities VS wants,
n especially this:
mind VS heart.
the usual 'aql VS nafs VS qalb thingy...
hati ini,
kadangkala tak terkawal rasanya,
nak rasa apa, dia main rasa je.
tanpa amaran, tanpa disangka, tanpa dipinta.
mencabar sungguh proses pensucian hati ni kan?
Andainya hati itu secebis kain,
kan ku sental dan berus ia habis-habisan.
siap letak Dynamo, Chlorox, Softlan, Mami Lemon, (& 'benda' wangi yang orang selalu amik dari bilik air mak tu. lupa pulak namanya) sekali.
lepas tu rendam. lepas tu genyeh-genyeh sekuat hati. lepas tu jemur kat matahari.
biar putih, suci, murni, harum mewangi.
biar bersinar terang bak mentari,
seindah syurgawi.
barcahaya! berkilauan bak jauhari.
cerah, berseri-seri.
biar hapus bintik-bintik hitam dan daki...
yang sekian lama terkumpul akibat kekhilafan, kelalaian, kecuaian, kebodohan*, kelemahan dan kemalasan diri ini.
*kebodohan tak sama dengan kejahilan. Mudarris (my Arabic language teacher) pernah bilang: orang2 Arab Jahiliyyah tu digelarkan demikian, bukan kerana mereka bodoh, malahan ada di kalangan mereka yang bijak dalam sastera, perniagaan, dsb.
Digelarkan mereka jahil adalah kerana mereka tidak mempunyai hilm, tidak sabar, enggan mengakui dan menerima kebenaran...
Allahu wa RasuuluHu 'alam.
tapi sejak tahu pasal ni, orang cuba elakkan dari guna perkataan "jahil" lagi.
....................
haiz. macam drama pulak.
ingatkan nak compose post feeling siket. skali tu bila da nak siap ni jadi macam lawak laa pulak~ ish.
tapi betullah cerita psl hati tu.
rasa mcm hati ni kotor sgt sgt.
memang kotor pun agaknya. berdaki. eeii!
takpe Khadijah. masa yang ada ni, selagi hayat dikandung badan, teruskanlah usaha mensucikan hati awak tu. ikhtiar. ok?
:)
ok insyaAllah orang try.
-betul ni? nanti cakap je, tapi buatnye tidak. malu tau kalau gitu. Allah Maha Melihat, Maha Mengetahui. dan di akhirat kelak akan dipancarkan setiap perbuatan kita. buat tontonan semua manusia. yang dalam hati pun ada.
hmm~ takut betul nak janji. takut tak mampu ditepati. sekarang ni bolehlah cakap macam realz. tapi esok lusa? bila alah dengan sikap2 alpa, lupa...
tenggelam dalam ni'mat dunia (na'udzubillah)...
janji entah ke mana...
takutnya ya Allah!
Berilah daku Taufiq & HidayahMu
buat menyuluh, menerangi, membimbingku...
dalam melayari bahtera hidupku di dunia yang fana' ini.
p.s. tired of my bahasa rojak. so tried to compose this piece, with as little rojak language (huh?) as possible -_-"
anw, to my youngest sis, insyaAllah bila orang ada duit lebih, orang belikan hadiah hari jadi Dhilah k?
oh yes, dah baik semula dah. since weeks ago. hee~ alhamdulillah...