indeed, such a special reward is promised for those who fast: both are wrong dear~
the correct answer to the 1st one is :"Masjid Quba' " (p4)
> note that the mosque was built "dalam perjalanan ke madinah". meaning that it can't possibly be masjid Nabawi coz the latter is in Madinah. the Quba' Mosque is named after the place, Quba'.
while that of the 2nd one is :...."samada mahu membayar tebusan dengan wang atau mengajar tulis-baca kepada anak-anak Islam hingga mereka pandai". (p5)
> see how wonderful our beloved Prophet s.a.w is? he didn't kill those Prisoner of Wars, did he? nor did he force them to embrace Islam. instead, they were given a choice. so i really wonder where these (sorry to say, but i think the best adjective to describe such people would be "i-g-n-o-r-a-n-t") people get the idea that it was the Prophet Muhammad s.a.w.'s "command to spread by the sword the faith."
hey. wait a minute. doesn't that sentence ring a bell?
oh yeah. it was what the Pope Benedict XVI cited from a Medieval text which, as we all know by now, had sparked an uproar among Muslims worldwide. oh okay, so he only "cited" it, and "stressed that the emperor's words did not reflect his own opinion.". (i wonder why he had to quote that Byzantine's emperor in the 1st place). and yeah, he was "deeply sorry" that Muslims took offense. (that's different from being "deeply sorry" for having cited the critical remark, u know...).
from what i still remember from all the Islamic History learnt thruout my 10 years in mwti, the Byzantine empire has never been on good terms with Islam. nak hancurkan Islam adelah... remember the wars they initiated against the Muslims?
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i'm still contemplating whether or not to just make full use of my MC and resume my SIP on next Tues OR to resume it on this Thurs instead. y? obviously NOT bcoz i miss doing the experiments nor am i missing the work environment (urgh). but bcoz i feel that i've recovered...
n to be honest, i feel guilty. coz i was able to 'travel' to Tamp last Sun to attend the RYC launch (thanks to the sisters who accompanied me thruout the event. *huGs*).. able to go to JB last nite with my bro's fiancee... had a great time eating many many things (loads of sushis, longan with pearls, pretzels, tahu bakar, mangga mude [i wish it was more sour. hmMph],etc. told u i get hungry faster these days... metabolic rate dah up habes~ ish.
...but i didn't go for my attachment! my only concern is whether i'm able to walk the long distance from the mrt station to d lab. naik bukit turun bukit...fuh! camne eh.... to go...or not to go~
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anw, just had my stitches removed this morning. the nurse 'complimented' my wound, saying that it's very well taken care of. tulah dier berkat pantang-memantang n 'jage makan' ni sumer...hehe =P
to Ukht Raihana Abdul Aziz, Ukht Hafizah Watib & Ukht 'Izzah Khamsani, ana masruurah haqqan bizziyaarah. thx for the great company last Sat nite @my place... will surely miss u guys when u have to return to Egypt in few weeks time... =(
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We forget that this Deen was once given Divine signs from Allah that were so clear as to inspire the soldiers of Islam to fight with a vigor and certainty that led a British prime minister to admit, “We cannot defeat a people who see the gates of Paradise down the barrel of our cannons.”
[Shaykh Hamza Yusuf]
19 Sya’aban 1427H
I’m back~ Although haven’t fully recovered yet, but somehow I feel stronger… alhamdulillah :)
For those who didn’t know about ‘it’ yet, I was actually hospitalized and underwent an open appendicectomy surgery last Sat, 09/09/2006 at TTSH. why? To remove my swollen n inflamed appendics.
In case u’re wondering how I felt when I got to know abt it, well, I felt nothing. Not anxious. Sad? No. scared? Nah. (coz I know I wouldn’t be conscious by then. haa..). all I felt was severe pain on the right side of my tummy. Like something vibrating inside n going to burst. OUCH!!! At that time I feel like it’s almost impossible for me to get back to normal and run again (yes, RUN. Of all the things to wish for… nak lariiiiiiiiii~).
And guess what I was worried abt all the while before the surgery? My TEETH. Yep, it sooo happened that I haven’t had my shower (luckily aku ni wangi sentiasa…ahakz) n so did not get to brush my teeth. I desperately tried to answer questions asked with as little words and ‘openings’ of the mouth, and facing the opposite direction. Lol.
Yes, I planned to write everything here for my future memoirs. I advise u to stop here unless u want ur eyes to be like these: @.@
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the pain started on Fri nite slightly before the meeting at an-Nahdhah. Org meeting duk atas kerusi, aku meeting duk bawah meja. Style kan? Haha… but mase tu can still maintain cool…. and when ppl asked me “ok tak?”, biaselah, ckp “ok”, smile… at that time I was almost 100% certain that it was just food poisoning. Like that I had on my 19th birthday (yep, this year lah). Org celebrate b’day at restaurants/home/etc…happy2… kiter celebrate b’day at Clinic. ni lagi style~
anw, thanks to Liyana who accompanied me home by taxi.
And of course, thanks to everyone who were very generous with their warm wishes and du’as for me, as well as reminders and words of encouragements. Not forgetting some weird messages abt “kutu merayap atas kepala” and “apek je yg masih pandu bas lambat”, from Mohksin and Muhaimin respectively. Merepek kaaaaaaaaaaaaaan?
Extra thanks for those who actually took the effort and time to visit me when I was warded:
my family members, relatives, friends, friends of family members (ade yg ku tak pernah nampak pon… didn’t know my 2nd bro informed his friends abt me. Ler.. tu pon nk bilang-_-") n my tutees with their family. That was indeed very sweet of u all.
N sorry for those who didn’t get to visit me in the hosp as I was discharged quite early (Wanis, Mar, Anisa...). Korang jugakkan yg du’akan speedy recovery ni sumer..hehe.. ;)
Oh. And as after-effects of the op, I have some difficulties in doing the normal things like burping, breathing, coughing, and…laughing. Ni semua ni’mat tau, as the Arabian proverb goes: health is a crown on the heads of healthy people only noticed by the sick people.
So sekarang ni semuanye mesti sopan. Ckp pun dah pelan, tak bleh laju2, tak kuat, coz I can only take short breaths. But yg laughing tu susah siket. Esp since I’m surrounded by very funny people. (=P). n when i came across funny articles like the one in Berita Harian abt a blind guy who only has 2 fingers on his right hand, have weak feet, and said that the reason he sped was to "hanya ingin menguji kemahiran memandu". ish. speeding pulak tu.... nasib baik takde yg kene lenyek. hopefully.
-to sis Khatim, Hazami n Huda, thanks for encouraging me to swallow those humongous (ye lah yelah..so I am exaggerating. But really. Gedabak arh itu capsule. Kalau tercekik kan dah kene different op pulak..erk!)
-To sis Raihana, thanks for carrying the drainage for me…haha. First time ‘holding’ blood eh? =P
-To the 5 sisters: Wani, Fiza, Sarah, Ruqayyah & Saqinah, thanks for the ‘entertainment’ provided, inclusive of feet massage lagi eh? lol.
-to sis Hadzirah for the banana. yes, she bought a single banana just for me. sweet kan? haha. i didn't know u can buy a banana b4...
-to sis Rozanna on behalf of the Ramadhan Rocks F&B Team, who insisted on visiting me although when she arrived, i was about to leave in less than 1/2 an hour.
-to Saliha n Elmi, awww~ jumpe jugak korang!!!
n to my new friend, Nazimah, who came to visit her moyang in the same ward as me and ended taking funny pictures together n eating chicken rice with me on my bed. hehe. this was on my 3rd day, when i was back to my hyper state (boleh gitu). Sat n Sun i was still very weak...
oh. n the most unforgettable incidence would be the moment the nurse pulled out the tube from my stomach. argh!!!! camne eh nak describe the feeling? hmm.. ok. imagine having a straw stuck high up in ur nose for 3 days, then suddenly have to be pulled out... mcm nightmare gitu. esp since i was 100% conscious then. wanted to watch lagi (konon terror lah tu eh Khadijah?hee) but the nurse advised me to look elsewhere. then another nurse came to pull out another needle which had been inserted about 5cm into my poor vein. yg ni tak sakit =) btw the nurse was super sweeeeeet~ overall, i'm happy with my experience at ward 11C, bed 82, TTSH. *smiles*
n guess how long is my MC? 17 days~ hmm. nk ckp happy, tak loncat2 pon. nk ckp sedih, of course tak gak. i was surprised, yes. 17 days???! all the way till 25th Sept. reminds me of something i wished b4 the op. i wished that i could just free myself from all these tutoring, teaching, and of course, attachment. little did i know that my silent wish came true very, very soon. *gulp* i guess Allah wants me to rest. so Khadijah, rest while u can k? :) n enjoy the princess-y treatment while it lasts... =P
there's a nurse who insisted on spoon-feeding me porridge at home (a.k.a my youngest sister), a chef who just prepared a breakfast i "mengidam" this morning (a.k.a. my 2nd bro). {fyi,it was toasted tuna sandwich with melted cheese on top. haha. who said sick ppl have no appetite? i actually ate 4 pieces of the sandwich. *burp slowly*}.
but nothing beats my 7th sister who was extremely worried abt me. messaged me loads of time, asking abt my state, advising n reminding me of this n that, apologised for scolding me before sampai me jatuh sakit, even volunteering to clean my jungle-to-be 'study table' when she came here this Friday. n i'm worried abt her. why? coz she's almost 8 months pregnant!!! ya ALLAH Kak Timah... takmo risau pasal org... i promise to take good care of myself n have good rest, insyaAllah. u also have to take great care of urself n ur baby tau. abt the scolding tu sumer, i don't mind a bit. mmg patot pun... adik Kak Timah ni kan baik sgt... ;)
anw, just called up my Liaison Officer just now. wanna know what he said? something like... "u might have to extend ur attachment..." tsk..tsk... BACHIN btul! wal 'iyadzubillah!
whatever lah eh... tu blakang crita. for now, i just wanna make this clear to all of u: *sayaaaang korang* n sorry eh coz in this condition, i can't really help much with things.... can't attend meetings, etc. etc. =( insyaAllah if there's anything that doesn't require me to leave my home, i'll try to help out. i've yet to gain the confidence to walk out of the house alone. mane2 manusia tersondol karang... siape yg susah? my zauj jugak.... kwang kwang kwang~ ;p
anyway, didn’t regret a bit that we FINALLY decided to accept the invitation. Food was crazily yummy (sedap giller), alhamdulillah. Although at that point of time my eyelids were already super heavy, I was still able to enjoy the dinner n conversations with the professors (esp. Prof Alan Godlas@ Abdul Haq who sat on my right) and even managed 2nd n 3rd helpings. Hee~ wanna know what succeeded in making their way safely into my oesophagus n further absorbed into my small intestines (yes! still remember my Bio=D) ?
Here are just a few:
BUT, felt guilty to those who had to pay for us… per head costs almost S$40 wei… ish. Baarakallaahu feehim.
Weekend was packed (still had my lessons & teaching) that I forgot all about my attachment. Thanks to those who du’a for me n shared advices n motivations. And to my dearest tutees for trying to cheer me up (they caught me, erm, crying, at the corridor looking at the birds flying freely in the sky… hehe… drama lagi~). Faridah (pri 3) wanted to do a makeover (konon lah tu) for me, with her Johnson’s Baby compact powder and lip gloss. Lol. before that she tried to massage my head. makin sakit adelah....hehe.
Ulfah (pri 2) was following me around, hugging me, saying “kesiannye awaaaak…” at intervals, asking me to just sit down n watch the TV or lie on the bed and need not tutor them that night… and many other cute gestures. Subhanallah! I was so touched.. n the tears flowed even more… ish~ Luckily nobody was at home besides Uci, their grandma who was in the kitchen preparing food for me. n those 3 kids & their K2 bro who asked me to wear goggles n a mask. when i put them on, they went "waaaaaaaah!". *grins*
anw, i did tutor them. Amanah kan :) but ended slightly earlier. Got a weird phone call, saying that I was shortlisted for a job interview at some business company at Raffles Place, bla bla bla. Supposed to have it last Mon 7pm, but I forgot all about it. Ntah biler mase org apply kerja pun tak tau. Tau pulak tu my attachment is 5 months… funny~ hmm. But the sister who called me (her name is Raihan) sounded very sincere… ntahla~
sometimes I wonder, at unhappy times like this, my friends are mostly not by my side. Esp. my secondary school friends…. like, where are u guys when I need you?? Last time in school we used to do many things together. Now is different. Way, way different… Okay, so they are busy with their own stuff. Takpelah~ May u guys be under Allah’s care wherever u are…
and then Allah sent other people into my life... Such wonderful brothers and sisters… Thank You Allah!
Nevertheless, I’ve learnt a lesson: jangan suka letakkan harapan pada manusia. Coz by doing so, u’re actually giving urself chance(s) to be hurt and disappointed. Sayang, suke, yes. But jgn mengharapkan sesuatu daripada manusia… letakkanlah harapan pada Allah, pasti takkan kecewa :)
with regards to my previous entry, I’m sure u guys noticed the errors (be it spelling, grammar, etc.) here and there :) didn’t have the time to re-read it b4 publishing as my 2nd bro was threatening to switch off the laptop (haha). Bachin betul. nak feeling sekejap pun tak menjadi. =P
But anyway, that basically reflects myself as a person who is full of flaws n shortcomings… in need of “editing” (i.e. improvements n upgrading) and "spellchecks" (i.e. muhasabah).
I asked for Strength.........
And ALLAH gave me Difficulties to make me strong.
I asked for Wisdom.........
And ALLAH gave me Problems to solve.
I asked for Prosperity.........
And ALLAH gave me Brain and Brawn to work.
I asked for Courage.........
And ALLAH gave me Danger to overcome.
I asked for Love.........
And ALLAH gave me Troubled people to help.
I asked for Favours.........
And ALLAH gave me Opportunities.
I received nothing I wanted
I received everything I needed
My Prayer has been answered
this poem cheered me up a bit. nice one, isn't it? :) whoever the author is, may Allah bless him/her...
