19 Sya’aban 1427H

I’m back~ Although haven’t fully recovered yet, but somehow I feel stronger… alhamdulillah :)

For those who didn’t know about ‘it’ yet, I was actually hospitalized and underwent an open appendicectomy surgery last Sat, 09/09/2006 at TTSH. why? To remove my swollen n inflamed appendics.

In case u’re wondering how I felt when I got to know abt it, well, I felt nothing. Not anxious. Sad? No. scared? Nah. (coz I know I wouldn’t be conscious by then. haa..). all I felt was severe pain on the right side of my tummy. Like something vibrating inside n going to burst. OUCH!!! At that time I feel like it’s almost impossible for me to get back to normal and run again (yes, RUN. Of all the things to wish for… nak lariiiiiiiiii~).

And guess what I was worried abt all the while before the surgery? My TEETH. Yep, it sooo happened that I haven’t had my shower (luckily aku ni wangi sentiasa…ahakz) n so did not get to brush my teeth. I desperately tried to answer questions asked with as little words and ‘openings’ of the mouth, and facing the opposite direction. Lol.

Yes, I planned to write everything here for my future memoirs. I advise u to stop here unless u want ur eyes to be like these: @.@
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the pain started on Fri nite slightly before the meeting at an-Nahdhah. Org meeting duk atas kerusi, aku meeting duk bawah meja. Style kan? Haha… but mase tu can still maintain cool…. and when ppl asked me “ok tak?”, biaselah, ckp “ok”, smile… at that time I was almost 100% certain that it was just food poisoning. Like that I had on my 19th birthday (yep, this year lah). Org celebrate b’day at restaurants/home/etc…happy2… kiter celebrate b’day at Clinic. ni lagi style~
anw, thanks to Liyana who accompanied me home by taxi.

And of course, thanks to everyone who were very generous with their warm wishes and du’as for me, as well as reminders and words of encouragements. Not forgetting some weird messages abt “kutu merayap atas kepala” and “apek je yg masih pandu bas lambat”, from Mohksin and Muhaimin respectively. Merepek kaaaaaaaaaaaaaan?

Extra thanks for those who actually took the effort and time to visit me when I was warded:
my family members, relatives, friends, friends of family members (ade yg ku tak pernah nampak pon… didn’t know my 2nd bro informed his friends abt me. Ler.. tu pon nk bilang-_-") n my tutees with their family. That was indeed very sweet of u all.
N sorry for those who didn’t get to visit me in the hosp as I was discharged quite early (Wanis, Mar, Anisa...). Korang jugakkan yg du’akan speedy recovery ni sumer..hehe.. ;)

Oh. And as after-effects of the op, I have some difficulties in doing the normal things like burping, breathing, coughing, and…laughing. Ni semua ni’mat tau, as the Arabian proverb goes: health is a crown on the heads of healthy people only noticed by the sick people.

So sekarang ni semuanye mesti sopan. Ckp pun dah pelan, tak bleh laju2, tak kuat, coz I can only take short breaths. But yg laughing tu susah siket. Esp since I’m surrounded by very funny people. (=P). n when i came across funny articles like the one in Berita Harian abt a blind guy who only has 2 fingers on his right hand, have weak feet, and said that the reason he sped was to "hanya ingin menguji kemahiran memandu". ish. speeding pulak tu.... nasib baik takde yg kene lenyek. hopefully.

-to sis Khatim, Hazami n Huda, thanks for encouraging me to swallow those humongous (ye lah yelah..so I am exaggerating. But really. Gedabak arh itu capsule. Kalau tercekik kan dah kene different op pulak..erk!)
-To sis Raihana, thanks for carrying the drainage for me…haha. First time ‘holding’ blood eh? =P
-To the 5 sisters: Wani, Fiza, Sarah, Ruqayyah & Saqinah, thanks for the ‘entertainment’ provided, inclusive of feet massage lagi eh? lol.
-to sis Hadzirah for the banana. yes, she bought a single banana just for me. sweet kan? haha. i didn't know u can buy a banana b4...
-to sis Rozanna on behalf of the Ramadhan Rocks F&B Team, who insisted on visiting me although when she arrived, i was about to leave in less than 1/2 an hour.
-to Saliha n Elmi, awww~ jumpe jugak korang!!!

n to my new friend, Nazimah, who came to visit her moyang in the same ward as me and ended taking funny pictures together n eating chicken rice with me on my bed. hehe. this was on my 3rd day, when i was back to my hyper state (boleh gitu). Sat n Sun i was still very weak...

oh. n the most unforgettable incidence would be the moment the nurse pulled out the tube from my stomach. argh!!!! camne eh nak describe the feeling? hmm.. ok. imagine having a straw stuck high up in ur nose for 3 days, then suddenly have to be pulled out... mcm nightmare gitu. esp since i was 100% conscious then. wanted to watch lagi (konon terror lah tu eh Khadijah?hee) but the nurse advised me to look elsewhere. then another nurse came to pull out another needle which had been inserted about 5cm into my poor vein. yg ni tak sakit =) btw the nurse was super sweeeeeet~ overall, i'm happy with my experience at ward 11C, bed 82, TTSH. *smiles*

n guess how long is my MC? 17 days~ hmm. nk ckp happy, tak loncat2 pon. nk ckp sedih, of course tak gak. i was surprised, yes. 17 days???! all the way till 25th Sept. reminds me of something i wished b4 the op. i wished that i could just free myself from all these tutoring, teaching, and of course, attachment. little did i know that my silent wish came true very, very soon. *gulp* i guess Allah wants me to rest. so Khadijah, rest while u can k? :) n enjoy the princess-y treatment while it lasts... =P

there's a nurse who insisted on spoon-feeding me porridge at home (a.k.a my youngest sister), a chef who just prepared a breakfast i "mengidam" this morning (a.k.a. my 2nd bro). {fyi,it was toasted tuna sandwich with melted cheese on top. haha. who said sick ppl have no appetite? i actually ate 4 pieces of the sandwich. *burp slowly*}.

but nothing beats my 7th sister who was extremely worried abt me. messaged me loads of time, asking abt my state, advising n reminding me of this n that, apologised for scolding me before sampai me jatuh sakit, even volunteering to clean my jungle-to-be 'study table' when she came here this Friday. n i'm worried abt her. why? coz she's almost 8 months pregnant!!! ya ALLAH Kak Timah... takmo risau pasal org... i promise to take good care of myself n have good rest, insyaAllah. u also have to take great care of urself n ur baby tau. abt the scolding tu sumer, i don't mind a bit. mmg patot pun... adik Kak Timah ni kan baik sgt... ;)

anw, just called up my Liaison Officer just now. wanna know what he said? something like... "u might have to extend ur attachment..." tsk..tsk... BACHIN btul! wal 'iyadzubillah!

whatever lah eh... tu blakang crita. for now, i just wanna make this clear to all of u: *sayaaaang korang* n sorry eh coz in this condition, i can't really help much with things.... can't attend meetings, etc. etc. =( insyaAllah if there's anything that doesn't require me to leave my home, i'll try to help out. i've yet to gain the confidence to walk out of the house alone. mane2 manusia tersondol karang... siape yg susah? my zauj jugak.... kwang kwang kwang~ ;p