Friday, November 16, 2012
اللهم انصر إخواننا المسلمين...
as Huda put it, both of us finally managed a mini hijrah today, in the form of creating a new Al-Wadi'ah Savings Account with OCBC.

it wasn't a good first impression for me with OCBC -very slow (took me around 40 mins), system breakdown, unfriendly officer -especially after I persistently insisted on sticking with the Al-Wadi'ah account, thus rejecting her advice for me to take up another account instead (one with interest and an insurance plan). 

I guess it depends on theofficer u're fated to liaise with. Huda's officer (a male) was veri nice -according to her. and she completed everything in around 20 mins. much sooner.

anywayy, may Allah Ta'ala Accepted our small effort... and make things easy for us :')
Dikau Maha Menyaksikan bahawa kami lakukan semua ini keranaMU... walaupun kami tahu lebih mudah & tak memeningkan hanya berdiam diri dan terus "bersama" POSB.. huhu.
...

The Zionists attacked my bothers and sisters again. The World Reacts, but as usual, and as expected, no action taken. a Zionist ambassador to the UN labelled Hamas as an "internationally recognized terrorist organization".

*sarcastic laugh* yeah right, no matter what the world says, u'll still continue spreading such accusations, since u're controlling the media, no? but such allegations won't deter nor affect my love and support for my Palestinian brothers and sisters.... 


نحن معكم يا أهل غزة



 
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Thursday, November 15, 2012
1st Muharram 1434H
مهما هبت رياح التغيير في العالم فالعاقبة للمتقين


came across this while reading my newsfeed. it was in one of the posts by Habib Umar ibn Hafiz -hafizahullah- 's FB page :')

...

the new Hijri year of 1434H just arrived a few hours ago. Allaaaaaah~ *speechless*
read the various new year messages at FB. contemplated over each one a bit, reflected upon myself... saying "ameen"... realising that merely wishing, hoping, n aspiring are not enough.

Do. Act. Start.


keep on doing Khadijah! 

n try to istiqamah in doing the good things u've started.
husnuz zann biLLAH...
jaga hati.
self-discipline.
Fight ur nafs !

it really does feel a whole lot better expressing myself here compared to FB. 

somehow. 

oh! btw, my khad-safiy is now 7 years and 3 months old. how time  flies  terbang~ (tk nk cliché punye psl. hah!)


so much has happened. re-reading my posts (whoa... there are LOADS!), i mostly smiled n chuckled... Khadijah then, n Khadijah now: how much have I grown? how's my spiritual and mental "progress"?

different, yes. undoubtedly. 
for the better? i hope so, yaaa Rabb... 
altho deep down, I feel that I was better spiritually back then, during my final year in Syaam. how in the world did I manage to do those things I did?? 

with Allah Subhanahu wa Ta'ala's Help, Guidance n Taufiq of course. 


but why do things seem n feel different now? e.g. why am I not as sensitive to music after 14 months since my return from Syaam, as I was during the first few weeks/months?? 


u've only urself to ask Khadijah. tanyalah hatimu... :'(((


Tomorrow's gotta be better than yesterday, Khadijah! n not vice versa! gotta get a grip of urself!

malulah Khadijah!

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the past few days have seen me down with headaches. hope they were not migraine attacks. just headaches that appear occasionally, due to thinking overload.


being me, i can hardly stop thinking. over 1001 stuffs. 

knowing me, I've to control those thoughts. when u think u've had enough, u've gotta pause or slow down, Khadijah.
simply focus on not to focus. (get it? i even have to consciously, constantly remind myself to stop thinking. stop concentrating. stop processing the info. oh well, i guess at times, it shouldn't be just a "pause", but a "stop".)

rest. hydrate urself. eat more frequent but smaller meals. eat more salty food.


n it's all in the mind, isn't it? 

Khadijah has always been strong, with Allah's Grace and Mercy.
n so she'll be, with Allah's Will :')

may ALLAH Ta'ala be Pleased with me, 

n may Rasulullah 'alaihis solatu wassalam n Sayyidah Khadijah Bint Khuwailid (sayang sgt!!!) radhiyallahu 'anha
be proud of me :'))

...

i'm already thinking of putting pictures to symbolize some of the things that i think will be of concern to me in the new year. 
but nah. at least, not for now. me gotta rest. 

Tomorrow's a holiday. hoping to fill the 1st Muharram 1434H with as much good activities as possible, biidznillah. 


really hope to blog on my feelings on teaching-students-aljunied-subjects-curriculum-amanah-al-Qur'an...

but those have to wait....
sabr Khadijah, sabr ! *ngeeeee~* 

 
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Thursday, November 08, 2012
yearning...
for the umpteenth time, i fell in love with Tarim...

such a thirst that perhaps could only be quenched by being there.

:')

Map of Hadhramaut

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Saturday, November 03, 2012
Muraqabah!
14 Dzulhijjah 1433H


Yesterday marks the final day of the Ayyam at-Tashriq. After 4 days of routinely doing the takbir after the 5 daily prayers, there was a sense of loss after Asar yesterday...

Allahu akbar. Allahu akbar. Allahu akbar!

...
So happy for 1st bro who's going to receive his Gold Award from SMRT.  Alf Mubaarak ya akhy..
May Allah Ta'ala Continue to Bless you with Strength and Patience in your jihad, my dear bro.
*sayang abang sangat*

...
tomorrow and Thursday mark the last exam paper for Pre-U 2 and P5-Pre-U 1 respectively. Bittaufiq wan najah ya ahbaabii~
on that note, I've realised how boring and patience-testing invigilating students can be (i'm taking about 2 hours papers...) . I'd rather be the one who sit for the exams. huhu. Hence, it did cheer me up a bit, looking at students who put in effort to answer the questions. 

Glancing at the faces of those who chose to remain till the very last second, and keep re-checking their papers, trying to recall a few points they're uncertain with... 

all these reminded me of myself. just last year. when sitting for my final Kuliyyah Da'wah Al-Islamiyyah exam in room 4, level 4, Mujamma' Syeikh Ahmad Kuftaro, Damascus, Syria (Allah yahmiiha yaaa Rabb!!).

to the anisaat who had to wait for me to submit my papers (n mind you, they were all 3-hour papers!), esp to Anisah Maha who even advised me and encouraged me to sit longer to read and check my papers thoroughly, hoping for the best out of me... 
Thank you soooo much for your patience, support and motivation! :') 
جزاهن الله خيراً

 
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