27 Safar 1436H

Just finished chatting with my dearest Anisah Maha Al-Harbali -hafizahallah-, my teacher-muqri'-motivator- from Syria (':

"ربي سيحقق لك ذلك ما دام عندك اليقين بأنه وحده الكريم"

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The house like to watch Junior Masterchef on tv. I can't help not getting attracted to watching kids showing superb culinary skills & so creative at preparing restaurant-standard dishes, within the limited time given! maasyaAllah...

Meanwhile, I was getting a bit disturbed by the fact that in every episode, the kids will also strive to eliminate their strongest opponent. Even the judges will remind them of the 'Strategy'...
All for the sake of getting the Junior Masterchef trophy/title. For the sake of winning.

In one episode, a small girl (aged 11 perhaps) even pretended to show kindness to another contestant by giving him a gummy bear, then saying to the judge (after the other contestant had left): "keep your friends close. keep your enemies closer".
I mean, look at the Intentions, pretense and ill-will towards others, at such a young age! >.<"

In Islam, we are taught of the concept of إيثار (iithar) when it comes to wordly things. To hope & pray for goodness for others. To preserve and take great care of ties (silaturrahim) for Allah's Sake...

Admittedly, this weak self of mine hasn't reach those levels (the iithar part esp. Yaa Rabb! Beri, Beri, Beri ya Khadijah!)...

But to the point of wishing elimination of others so that one will top it off?? #hatitaksedapsangat

Likewise, perhaps most competitions in this world are very material-based.
Such that they trigger humans to focus on the self getting to the top, albeit needing to 'trample' on others to do so..?

And we got caught in such waves, consciously or unconsciously. hmmm...

#justwhatcrossedmymind

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Ok, now Khadijah needs to get back to her books. #bacasampaikhatam!
recalled what she read in the book Ta'alimul Muta'allim:

Just started to (finally) clean-rearrange-shift many khazanah in the "junglish" room (shared among 6 pax, mind you).

came across stuffs dated all the way to P5 . Geesh! Let's see:

- letters & programmes for Lajnah Pendidikan & Kebajikan ITMAWAT

- list of ice-breakers n programmes for campS

- meeting minutes/notes from IMPIAN-PERGAS, Saff-PERDAUS, Nur Ikhwan... (And just last Wednesday, i came across DMASYQ meeting notes while rummaging thru my Syrian cargo boxes)

- notes, booklets, take-aways from various talks, seminars, workshops, camps, u name it. and files! LOADS of them..

- timetables! From MWTI to TP days, including details of O Levels and practice papers (ha!)

- notes & worksheets of lessons at MWTI, esp. those containing Qur'anic verses & ahadith, plus lists of Idioms, Simpulan Bahasa, Peribahasa.. In addition to the notes during my super short PU 1 days (': I was especially touched by the interesting & well-organised notes Sir Indera prepared for our GP lessons. maasyaAllah 'alaih...

- my 'mini masterpieces' which include cerpen, sajak, letters, debate notes and compositions in Arabic & English. Including some insya' corrected by Mudarris! ^^ When I read those insya' that I've written, I again realised how much I've gained and benefitted from the techniques & knowledge that Mudarris Iskandar had imparted to me during our al-Wehdah days. Arabic truly is sooo beautiful and fun when you get to play with the words & experiment new and uncommon phrases in your writings. Allah yajzikum khaira jaza' ya Mudarris!

- Letters addressed to me from my sis Maimunah during her KUSZA & al-Azhar days, from my penpals, from Sri and Saliha, even from my sis Fadhilah (they were funny! Haha). I even came across poems and Backstreet Boys's lyrics (which Saliha wrote for me back during our secondary school days. adoi~)

- magazines & articles, including newspaper clippings. Found my entry which was published in BH when I was 17. #SiapakahMelayuBaru

- diaries dated all the way to my al-Wehdah and sec 1 days where I actually and unbelievably recorded and described what I did on some of the days -most of which I felt like "yaa Rabb tak pentingnyeeer" -_-

gotta break for tonight, and shall resume tomorrow biidznillah! #stressjugakkemaskemasni

الحمد لله الذي هدانا لهذا وما كنا لنهتدي لولا أن هدانا الله

حضرتُ الاجتماع (السنوي :)) للمجموعة "الوفاء" مع أخواتي المتميزات والرائعات. شاورنا عن بعض الأمور المتعلقة بمسؤولية الدعوة وعن مسيرة "الوفاء" المستقبلية.
نسأل المولى جل وعلا أن يوفّقنا لكل ما يحب ويرضى ويثبّتنا على الصراط السوي ويسدّد خطانا. كأن الدور والمسؤولية سيكثّران. اللهم لا سهل إلا ما جعلته سهلا وأنت تجعل الحزن إذا شئت سهلا سهلا..

قبيل المغرب، هرولتُ إلى مسجد دار المعمور. أوشكتُ ألا أحضر الدرس هذه الليلة بسبب التأخر... لكن الخطوات مستمرة حتى وصلت إلى المسجد (':
{واعتصموا بحبل الله جميعاً ولا تفرقوا}
من الآيات المشروحة من قِبل سماحة المفتي... يا له من إلقاءٍ مؤثر... وخاصة عندما وضّح المفتي سبب أو حكمة من استعمال الكلمة "حبل":
- kerana saat kita tergelincir (akibat turutkan nafsu/bisikan syaitan...) kita masih punya tempat berpaut. Lebih hebat ujian & dugaan, sepatutnya lebih kuat pula pautan kita pada Tali tersebut..

- tali itu menyatukan, namun ia tidak melarutkan. Contoh: sapu lidi yang terdiri dari 50 batang lidi yang berlainan; pabila diikat, lidi2 itu bersama. Namun bila dileraikan, semuanya masih 50 lidi juga. Berbeza dgn air sirap & susu yg pabila dicampurkan, ia tidak boleh dipisahkan lagi.
Bermakna: masyarakat Muslim kita, walau terdiri dari individu2 yang berbeza personaliti, pendirian, pandangan, sikap, namun masih blh bersama & bersatu, sekiranya kita semua diikat dengan Tali Allah!

:')

16 Safar 1436H

The (school-related) Trips ended last Jumu'ah; Melaka - KL - Jogja.

Alhamdulillah managed to attend one of ustzh Halimah Alaydrus's sharing on Roh last Sunday. Subhanallah...
About how much we have neglected to feed our Ruh, and only cared for our physical beings (sibuk pikir nak makan yang sedap2, nak exercise jadi badan sihat, etc.).
Sedangkan:
"... Dalam Ruh yang indah & sihat, terdapat jasad yang indah & sihat. Bukan sebaliknya! Ruh menjadi kuat pabila ia bersandar kepada Zat yang Maha Kuat!"

sebab tu Hubabah Bahiyyah yang di saat usianya 94/96 tahun, masih tegap mendaki Jabal Nur saat menunaikan umrah/haji (':

"Allah Sangat mempedulikan Ruhmu! Maka solatmu menjadi bermakna jika Ruhmu turut hadir..."

"Bacalah sirah Rasulullah sollallahu 'alaihi wasallam... Sehingga Ruhmu penuh dengan Cinta kepadanya!"

dan Ustazah berkongsi akan nasihat Hubabah Bahiyyah -hafizahallah- kepadanya, tatkala ustazah pernah berkongsi kisah2 tentang kekhusyukan dan kehebatan solat para salafus soleh, sehinggakan tidak mengesan kebakaran rumahnya (Sayyidina Ali Zainal Abidin: "aku sedang membayangkan api neraka di hadapanku, maka api kecil di dunia tidak kurasakan..") mahupun kesakitan tatkala tubuhnya dibedah sewaktu beliau solat (Habib Abu Bakar as-Sakran -rahimahullah-)...

"Itu adalah mereka & solat mereka... di zaman kita sekarang ini, kita tidak mampu mendekatkan diri kita dengan Allah dengan cuba mencapai tahap solat seperti mereka2 ini (kerana jauhnyaaaa kita dari mereka)..."

jadi bagaimanakah caranya??

"... Cintailah Nabi Muhammad sollallahu 'alaihi wasallam sebisa mungkin yang kamu bisa mencintai seseorang... Kerana Nabi tak akan pernah menyia-nyiakan orang yang mencintainya!" :'))))

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Alhamdulillah managed to spend almost 5 hours at Mardhiyyati's place. The initial niyyah is to ziarah, esp since I've not really seen her (except for the 5 minutes encounter after ustzh Halimah's Sunday talk) and little 51-day old Ruqayyah. Also to try talaqqi a kutaib if the situation permits... Esp with the presence
of 4-year old Abdullah Syukri, 2 years old Muhammad Abdurrahman, and little Ruqayyah. And yes, we dis manage to squeeze some time to talaqqi 2 chapters of Ta'limul Muta'allim together, alhamdulillah :')
It's an eye-opening experience for me, seeing Mardhiyah and her jihad in raising and taking care of her 3 Jewels Pemangkin Ummah, and at the same time snatching time to read books in between...
Felt bad having to bid farewell to the 4 of them (they'll be "home alone" till tomorrow night insyaAllah).
Subhanallah! Allah yubaarik feehim..

And YOU Khadijah, still single, n yet how much do you really spend on reading...??? -_____-"

#jotosplease