i've drafted my hearts' contents on the way home from work today.

this feeling of spiritually unhealthy.

i think i've composed quite an essay, forgot to save it (when i had to alight the train), n whooosh! it was gone (':

i need to free myself from all the distractions. but how?

escape to Yaman.

is that cowardice?

this weak self is in dire need of tarbiyah. tafzkirah. consistently. incessantly.

this dunya is full of distractions. afraid of being pulled further from HIM lest i remain as i am.
i need to surround myself with ppl who can remind me of HIM more...

i need to detach myself from the wordly attachments.

Allaaaaah... :'(